=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= Random Thoughts --------------- Hmmm well just a quick but somewhat amusing/scary/interesting thought that just came to light recently. I've thought this before but it was just its reoccurance due to a specific situation that made me think about writing on it. To put it in a nutshell I've noticed that we humans need other humans to keep us safe from ourselves... To clarify: Those people that seems to spend an extended period of time self absorbed in deep introspection usually are far less carefree than those others that are constantly 'distracted' via social interaction. The slightly humorous part, its almost as if we need social interaction to keep ourselves safe from our own mind. I realize that I'm generalizing things slightly when I say this, but nonetheless mental instability is something inflicted upon us by ourselves, deep introspection, totally self absorption in our own world created by our own mind. Of course chemical imbalances or environmental circumstances all play a role in the cause of mental sickness, however mental sickness' battlefield is carried out in what is the essence of our individuality, our thoughts. Nothing ground breaking in this, just more of a general observation and its irony. It almost seems as if our mind is not the controlling mechanism of our existence, its almost as if this mass that we call the brain is an entity on its own and not our human defining entity. Almost as if it has its own agenda, our conscious thoughts occupy a small portion, something really insignificant and with minimal control. Reason I say this is as follows. As we all know, soldiers can become shell shocked after seeing all that destruction, death and other sickening actions, which the mind deals with by a variety of means. However, all these means are not something that we can consciously define, or say that we consciously trained ourselves to follow. All of these defense mechanisms were the result of subconscious changes, almost as if there is that other part of our brain that controls us, that does anything necessary to sustain its own existance. Reason I say its own existence is because invariably these changes alienate use as humans from the rest of society... which obviously isn't something that any sane individual would want. Selfish little thing isn't it? So I guess all those 'shallow' individuals that are so carefree are the ones who are the most sane? I don't know, it might be true. One thing that all deep thinkers like to believe is that in someway we are 'deeper', we have more substance, our personality is defined more by our actions rather than our appearance. I can't argue with that, but is that really something to pursue? If I had a choice I can't say that I would really want to be in the present situation that I am. I think that I would prefer to be one of the carefree and shallow.. after all what's the point of living if the only memories one will have is of those lonesome days and nights with oneself and one's thoughts. The quality of one's life is defined largely by the memories, material wealth plays a very small part in the grand scheme of happiness. Memorable moments rarely if every center around moments of seclusion, not to say one can't only have memories of seclusion. The urge to criticize 'shallow' individuals is rooted a jealousy most of the Time. I say this because I'm aware of myself being guilty of this. I think I could have so much to say, some much to discuss with people.. however I also lack the ability to communicate on the level of the 'shallow', to make inane conversation. Once again this is not a criticism of the 'shallow' people, just a description of what our present society considers of that sort of conversation. In the end maybe we should all force ourselves to get out, to mix with as many people as possible. Don't just get drawn towards those people like oneself, its good to know people similar to oneself, but what's the point of mulling over the same stuff again and again. I for one am tired of always talking about the way things are, and the way to resolve them... I think all people of reasonably mental stability are aware of how to resolve their situation, they just do not have the desire to do it... or fear it too much. 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