=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= heat ---- summer is brutal. i lie awake every night, restless, beads of sweat rising on my neck, face, and thighs. the heat makes it impossible to concentrate, and my thoughts flicker like a hummingbird jumping from flower to flower. it's the heat that keeps me awake, the heat that makes me think instensely and unendingly about everything that comes to the surface from the depths of my brain and body. it's the heat that makes me want to crawl out of my own flesh and become someone else. when the air above the pavement visibly quivers and i can taste the grit of the city within my dry mouth, i feel dirty. it's the same feeling i have when i see my ex in the darkness of the club, or i hear a song that reminds me of the past. i want to run away, escape, cleanse myself in a deep clear pool. it's the heat that makes me think these things, these incoherent ramblings of a woman who loathes all that she is and all that she ever was. the heat feels like a pulse. a constant beat that reverberates through my brain and rocks my soul with it's eternal and relentless hum. it never lessens, never fades. the heat is like the razor that i once used to tease my flesh, sharp and bright. the heat is even a little like a love i once had, an immersion so complete and strong that i thought it would never end. there is something good about the heat. it goes away, it fades gently into crisp air and cool colors, kind of like the soft shuddering end of an orgasm, when the pulse finally ceases. i like the cold. death is cold. the heat reminds me too harshly that i am alive. palpable obscure =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = = WWW http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = = http://www.interlog.com/~lisa/f.u.c.k = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=